From fresh out of the womb:
To little miss independent, wants to feed herself and doesn't want any help from anyone:
I am so proud of who this baby independent and sassy, already at FIFTEEN Months. I wonder what 15 YEARS OLD will look like?!
However, I am one big emotional mess. Yes, my mama heart is just breaking.
I never in my life thought I would be such a wreck. I think for the first time, I am coming to terms with time. Time passes so much faster when you have a child, maybe because a human is just changing right before your eyes.
I sit here and just remember all the amazing growth that has happened over the past year and know there are so many good times ahead, but can't help but miss the little baby I brought home just a year ago. The one that just needed all the snuggles, and now I have a year and three month old that is desperately trying to be independent.
I am not ready for that. Not. One. Bit.
Motherhood has absolutely changed every part of my life. Every mother at some point think of her life in spans of the ages of her babies. It happens. I think Mamas often grow with their babies. The perspective changes with each season.
Teething days and tantrums often look like this.
Then there's days that you just wish you could freeze frame time.
This baby is 27lbs and 31inches long. Somedays she only wants to eat blueberries, somedays I think she'll turn into a blueberry. I think she secretly hopes that too.
Never mind the mounds of laundry you see behind me, I'll tell you right now it sat on the couch for a week. Do I feel bad about it? NOPE. We were way too busy playing.
The only way I can get her to take a bath is with toys. If there are no legos, there is no bath. This is how we roll.
In the last 15 months, I have the messiest house that i've ever had in my life, the dishes sometimes sit in the sink for days at a time. I have the world's happiest family and that's all I can ask for.
Ps. I promise to blog more.
Love you, Mean it.
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