Monday, April 20, 2015

A Serious Post with an Open Ending

So I haven't been posting very much lately and there is a definite reason why.

I have always been a very Type A person. I can't help it, if I don't feel like I'm working toward something, or making my time worth it, I feel I'm wasting time. I don't start my Bachelor of Nursing program until May, and this small transition from school to no school is hard. To say the least it's been a difficult transition from the East Coast to the West coast, much more than I thought it would be.

Yes, California is beautiful and I am so fortunate to be soaking up the sun and all that it has to offer. However, I'm trying to find my role here and where I fit in. Furthermore, I'm trying to figure out how to be a professional nurse from being a student for 8+ years.

I recently went to an open house to inquire about a job. The open house was 30 miles away and about an hour in commute, which in LA time is pretty good. You'll always be in your car for nearly an hour no matter where you go. Anyways, this open house is where interviews were being conducted on the spot, and I knew this was my chance.

The open house was from 7a-3p.  I showed up about 11a and stayed well after 3pm, when the open house was supposed to be shutting down, and I still didn't get a chance to be seen/talked to. There were new graduate nurses everywhere, some had just graduated and some had been RNs for TWO years and didn't have a job yet. My heart dropped. How can this be possible?

I realized something that I didn't before.

The fact of the matter is, Los Angeles, CA doesn't want to hire nurses without experience, PERIOD. It's expensive and super costly to train new nurses, it just is. It doesn't really matter if you know someone or not, or made the best grades, if you didn't go to nursing school in California, you'll have more trouble than you have ever known not finding a job. Some of these positions for new grads get 100's of applications when they only have 3 spots to fill.  Folks, you basically make your contacts in nursing school. Well I went to nursing school in Charleston, SC, so where does that leave me?

Being a military spouse can be really tough at times.  There are times when you feel like you don't belong and then there are times when you feel you have it all together. I don't talk a lot about being a military spouse on here, because I refuse to use it as a crutch, but I will tell you moving every 3-4 years and starting over is hard.

Do I want you to feel sorry for me?
No. Absolutely not.

I chose this lifestyle and would choose it again and again.

I now see this as a challenge, maybe one of my biggest ones yet. I've faced more than a few hurdles in my life and I know this won't be my last one. After all, life wouldn't be worth it, if it was easy all the time, right?

I know my perfect job out there is waiting for me. I will find it, just not in my time.

I know that timing is everything, if I can put the effort into 42 applications to one hospital (my last job), for a patient care tech job, I can put in the hours for countless amount of applications to many hospitals here in town.

I have a lot of good things happening in my life. My husband supports me 1000% and I have some of the greatest friends anyone could ask for. They lift me up when I need it the most. I live in a beautiful place and have met some amazing people. I will make California home, just like I did in Charleston.

I will focus on the good.

I will not let this discourage me.

I will see the good in this even if I can't right now.

Most importantly I will let this continue to be my open ending:




Stay amazing, y'all.

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