Week 15/16: A blur of two weeks.

Week 15 was a blur.

But I did manage to get this picture.

Week 16 Picture: 

Still kind of beer belly worthy or an after buffet belly. But there is a baby in there!! 

I love succulents. They are tough, live in hard and dry conditions and require little water but really sustain themselves.

They are life's little reminder that something beautiful waits until it's ready.

Have you ever noticed that succulents actually are capable of blooming flowers, when they are properly nourished and find roots? It takes time to do this. A lot of time. I planted these succulents a year ago. I've just noted their bloom this week.

I hope I can grow the patience of succulents. When I started this, I didn't really know where it was going, or why I was writing nothing about succulents, but as I realized this, I can really compare tough situations in life to this.

Nursing as by far been one of the most challenging things i've ever done. It's seriously tested me, pushed me to the limit and made me question if this is for me. Yet when I feel like I'm ready to quit, somehow I find the sustenance to keep going. I know that in Nursing, protecting yourself is key. You'll run into situations that are hard, you try to keep your emotions out of it and do the work because that's whats asked of you.

You really have to remind yourself that you're still human. You still have feelings, and those feelings matter.

Always.

I guess after nearly being a nurse for 3 years, i'm waiting to bloom or really find my way and find my niche. I don't know when that's going to happen, but I hope that through all the hard and dry conditions that I will sustain myself and get to the blooming part. Until then I will try to remain as resilent as the succulents.

Food for thought.

You could say my pregnancy emotions have got the best of me this week!

Aversions: Nothing. I want all the food.

Cravings: RAMEN! Guacamole with carrots. Chilaquiles. Seriously I had chilaquiles twice last week. #notafitpregnancy

These past two weeks have been emotional, not as in crying, just really bitchy. Here's to hoping my attitude really perks up the next few weeks!


Questions:

Veteran Mamas: did you notice you had different feelings with different pregnancies? It's so weird. With Allie I was sappy and emotionally intense with tears and with this one I'm just bitchy.